You may have noticed I have had nothing to say for the last few days....
After I wrote that last post I packed up, left work and had a good cry in my car on my way home. It was then I realized how much this trip means to me. And it was then that I realized that I don't know what I'm going to do if I can't go.
I'm still feeling very disheartened and emotional about all this. Deep inside I don't feel like this is going to happen so now I am left to ask myself.... what do I want to do?

I'll be back when I have something more substantial to say.
Thank you for your support, everyone. As always, you have been great.